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Wed, May. 18th, 2005, 10:56 am
Sex Queen of the Bullimic World

I just Registered For Next Fall's Classes

I am trying my best to hang on

But my best is not the best according to the Social Standards Of you brain dead Morons

You are never satisfied until you see the bloody blades drop from my numb fingers

Death will be my ultimate Destiny

it is Inevitable

But till it arrives to take me away, Pls allow me to enjoy my moments of insanity

They are precious and i treasure them more than i treasure your kisses

I am a Food Deprived Whore, Not because i want to be, But because it is what i have been labeled as

Let me live in peace

While u live in Sorrow

Mon, May. 16th, 2005, 10:44 am

Anorexic State..

I appear to be eating regularly now..For 2 days

It scares me

I have never loved food like this in my life

*This is what i get for humping my pillow*(Not really..My pillow refused to hump me..But okay..)

I miss...

Looking at my blue haired Boy with the binoculars and Blushin(yes..i blush...Its a mystery to me too..Get over it)

He had many piercings

All i had to do was go over and say "Hi"

I wanted to kiss him

Metal kisses...

I miss...

When i was a bitch and wasnt prone to vulnerability

My innocence

The concept of Being in love with Lies, Betrayal and Emotional pain

Wed, May. 11th, 2005, 09:57 am
My best Friend is a Traitor But i <3 the Biatche

My best Friend Sticks by Me even during a fight
She pushes me away and tackles the Motherfuckers
She peepees with me and showers with me
She holds me when i cry and kisses me when i am high
She giggles with me when we share a secret
She is Two faced and Possesive

my BestFriend is a sex fiend
she leads me astray and stops me when i am about to do something bad
She holds my hands during the night and tells me she loves me
during the day she abandons me

my best Friend is my guilty conscience

Fri, Apr. 22nd, 2005, 01:46 pm

*Scared*.Why do i giggle during funerals?
Or laugh when people get hurt?
i think i am posessed.


Fri, Apr. 22nd, 2005, 11:00 am

them:Uh.."i hate that One black chick because she says shit"
Me:this is where i say" i dont give a shit fool"
them:Uh.."doesnt she look ugly? lets all act like highschool cheerleaders who have sucked so much dick its affecting the way we think and point and laugh at her"
Me: Go ahead. can i suggest something?
Me: Suicide
them:Okay. Blade or dental Floss
Me: either one. can i watch?
them:Ew.Gross *hysterical giggling*" did that THING just say she wants to watch us die?
Me: i did. why?
them:Uh. No reason *snickers*
Me: uh Okay losers. What time are u planning to kill yourself?
them:Uh. Say sunday. Behind the church. Its pay per view
Me: sorry am broke. am not paying to watch some bitch die. ur mother turned out to be a waste of money
them:Am sorry. do u want a refund
Me: thats okay. as long as i watch for free. Deal?

Fri, Apr. 22nd, 2005, 09:38 am
fuck Your Self. You r a Sad loser so Moving on..

Am i Gonna be called an "EMO" bitch now?

I am too Heartbroken to be tired
Desire ruins me
Love runs through my thinning vains

i am Too ugly to be loved
too pushy to be needed
too angry to be calm
Too picky to settle

sleep comes and goes
i wish i could go forever
watching you love someone else
makes my eyes water and my tongue dry out
i am turned on

self consciousness kills me
irritated with my sense of self
i yank and pull
shove and push
drag and tug
just to get close to you

lust.Illusion. Heartbreak. Denial.
the ingredents of Love
Let me in
If not
Fuck you
i was dying without you any ways
Let me be dead if i cant have you